The ambition to note it.
The idea to have it said.
To recite exactly how you feel. a blanket of doubt or dread.
To never tell anyone-not even a friend.
Embarrassed of the result-hiding in the end.
Looking in the mirror, missing all your flaws.
Watching your phone, hoping for a call.
Staying up at night, trying not to think.
Tweaking your imagination, pouring another drink.
Tipsy with the idea, just not settled.
Now wishing you had kept quiet.
Knowing you’ll die regretting it.